to try/accomplish

I suddenly thought of a few things I wana try/accomplish:

1) roller blading

2) understand and be better at basketball (I realised my dribbling sux.)

3) have more fun in poly - cling on to some teachers

4) get gold for cca

5) try ice skating once

6) go to minds cafe with friends - have a freaking whole lot of fun and laughter

7) understand my body through modern dance (enjoy dancing)

8) get myself into more camps/ help out in SP overseas camp

Not thinking now.. Should have more in my list.. Soon..

one and two.

One thing that made me frustrated but two things made me happy.

ONE.

Zhinzha.. Seriously.. This guy is really getting on my nerves. He does need to check himself. I shall not judge him, however the fact that he keeps asking me to cheat the survey really drives me to a point where I am speechless. Doesn't he see that I am going to be responsible for what I am committed to do? This does not mean not being flexible, however, this survey needs to be done in THAT WAY. ALAMAK. nevermind..

TWO.

Two Aunties I surveyed gave me packet drinks and 1 offered me a mini business opportunity. I still remembered, they were Green Tea and Lemon Barley drink. Also, the last house I surveyed had this gentleman in his 20's giving me complete answers for the survey. Seriiiously, his handwriting is the neatess among all the surveyees and he really does it willingly. That made my day. That made me so glad.

12 completed for the residents and 31 for shoppers.

82 to go for residents and 10 for shoppers.

Chelsea zhinzha zhinzha fighting`~!

when there's the moon so high in the sky, I wish I could fly~

You have to read from bottom upwards...!

Having a whole lot of fun.

And that's me and my dramatic sis!

Lovely sister. Lovely art.

My brother came by just in time to see her up the stage. He shared the joy. I had to exchange that entrance ticket for our mooncakes.! yum. Anyway, mei mei went to do some colouring and pencil rubbing, and those are the tiger ears still on the tip of her head.

You will be judged on your creativity and the amount of recycled materials used. You can dress your family member as something that has to do with the mooncake festival. You have 10 minutes.. Oh no! Did we sign up for the wrong competition? What is this? Nobody told me I have to dress her up in 10 minutes?! Should I dress her as a rabbit? A tiger?? Ha-ha.. It was rather fun. Thanks to her friends who helped her such that she managed to get the top 3! She is cat-girl alright! reooow`~ I made the ears and her claws, while Samuel made her long stripped tail, and his Mum did her dressing. Gabriella helped with the taping. And oh! How glad I was that this year was the year of the tiger. It all fit in.. ..

then I listened on for the criteria for judging..

About 6-7 hours ago was really a fantastic day in my mei mei's school. We helped her join a Fancy Dress Competition not even knowing the rules. Thinking that it was some "dress up, cat walk and win!", we quickly settled her name in the form. I tasted the tea, met my sister's friends and thought the day was just going to past by. It was time for the competition. Should I get Lorraine to change to her dress? Is there time to change? Then the emcee started announcing the rules. Each contestants will be given a box of recycled materials to dress up a representative of your family. Please check that you have...

What? Say what?

Thank God, I'm still walking close with Him, reading His word. Two more papers to go and I chose to slack today after the routi-ny days of waking up at 5am, dozing off for another hour or two, studying from dawn to night, and in between breaks to lunch, dinner and the toilet. It's quite a chore because meal time comes by so quickly. It's not like secondary school where I can sit in the canteen for hours, maximising my time and having friends there to do homework with or ask questions. Now, it's all about self survival. Remind yourself or you are done for. Get your own practice papers from online. Find the lecturers, cause they won't come bugging you to check your progress individually. And... there is no P.E. in poly! I want to go jogging, I want to run 2.4km like I did. My stamina has gone down the drain. No one to play basketball in SP.. It's no longer like secondary school where I play basketball almost everyday after school. Staying back until 7plus 8plus in the night. I am so going to Swensens. I mean to play basketball now. Chao.!

I just found this.

I can't believe I wrote a poem about my class back then. I've managed to dig it out from the pass memories of our class blog. It was 3E1 and then 4E1, and then it's gone. Different people took different paths. I regretted not creating more havoc back then. Being the perfectionist, I realised how much I've missed as I've always been termed 'the busy girl'. Well I'm still am. really.. Not sure what I'm so busy with and I guessed that's the reason why I miss out that much from peoples' life around me. I guess again, no investments were made. And even now, in poly, it's about the same. Well sometimes I just have to learn that flawless pictures are not necessary the best looking, being lacked a little here and there with all of them together, that's when the picture stands out much better.

This was the poem.

Intro to our BELOVED 3E1 GANG?

3-E-1, the number one,
We must have heard this from everyone.
What's so special? It's so natural
But oh yeah, it's so fun. It's easier said then done.

It's a gang, full of fun
And it won't make us wana run.
Thanks for those of bubbly voice,
Including those who makes roudy noise.

We will always be satisfied,
And if we leave, we would have cried.
Never fear, cause they are here.
With jokers (I mean rockers),
Who'd make us think we're in a circus.

Overall, you're our all in all.
3-E-1, you're the best of all.
Without the pain, you'll never gain
Like a rainbow that appears after a rain.

So put on your best,
As teachers put us to the test.
We'll always be UNITED
NEVER SEPERATED!!

Hope you know our class's specialty!
Like you enjoy those spa-ghe-er~tti.
It may look easy to break a nut,
Just like people who produce those furds.

But be A PART
And we'll never be APART!
Together we work hard,
Without any 'buts'!

Well... It's not some bombastic poem but sure had some thoughts running through it.

fallen back to the old days.

Pink was all I see recently. My blog, the print ads that I am doing and.. my pinky toes when it's all frosted. I dreamt of Kristen and Hwee Chin last night. Quite silly though.

I've fallen to the back of the pair again. Back to the old days where silence kept up with me. Humph.

taxi/ taxing? comfortable/ un-comfortable?

Felt like writing more. But what to? Nothing much just that I've managed to drill myself into completing at least two print ads today. Sitting on the round chair was comfortable at first, then soon it became uncomfortable when you sink in and your back starts to ache from the hours. It reminds me of one of my Art Paper 2 work where I did an art work on my Daddy as a taxi driver.

It is quite ironic for a cab to say comfort, when the taxi drivers do not get comfortable after driving the long hours. It is taxing on them - their ass gets sore, legs get cramped and backs aches, when all they are entitled to is that small little space as they face the road ahead. Taxi drivers have to maintain that comfort level for customers too - keeping their taxis in tip top condition and dusting the mats even after a hard day's work. Taxi driving is not only physically challenging. It test their minds too. Road maps, signs, short cuts, directions, instructions, buildings... All these are requirements taxi drivers face and have to be knowledgable about as well. And finally, it boils down to the social aspect. Meeting different kind of people daily, having to be able to communicate with strangers needs a lot of courage. Getting to places according to the level of urgency and their needs would be top most priority. Therefore, "taxi driving seemed easy money "- think again.

food for a thought.

The thoughts of you can't fade away... When you start to think and dream of people you know and have not been talking to them, that doesn't mean they are not part of your life. Thinking and dreaming of them, while I was on the road again. Scanning among the sea of people, sometimes I don't see them and hunting for those familiar faces, I widen my view. This week I've been thinking about 'broken relationships', how it can tarnish my life. It's like a sin.

A story of a girl (I'll call her Chocolate) in a classroom having her usual lessons. One day, a new student joined the class. (Let's call her Lollipop). Chocolate approached Lollipop to get to know her better, however, Lollipop's eyes did not seem to shift to her direction. Ignorace was all that mattered.

Day after day, Chocolate tried to interact with Lollipop, tried to share with her chocolates, lesson notes, involve her in movies, but chocolate seemed to be of no existance before Lollipop. This continued for the remaining 3 years in school. No matter how much Chocolate was expecting Lollipop to open her door to her, it was always shut. Never opened.

On the 3rd year, Chocolate got a new gadget, SUPER MEGA SELF ADJUSTING CAMERA for their photography lesson. It was the latest! The newest! Something that would assured a distinction for their End of Year project. And... at the corner of Chocolate's eyes, were knees crawling up to her, asking "May I borrow your SUPER MEGA SELF ADJUSTING CAMERA for a week?"

Would you lend Lollipop your SUPER MEGA SELF ADJUSTING CAMERA after her 3 YEARS of her treating you like an invisible person?


This story is like the broken relationship we have with God. Many years, God is knocking at the door and asking if He could carry our burden for us, help us in any way. But we think we can handle it all. We thought everything is going well and we shut the door preventing God from entering. And when we are at our wits end, and when we finally need help, we go crawling to God and asking for providence and help. Praying for God to provide a way out for us. Will God help us then? This broken relationship with God is sin.



Would it be easier to ask Chocolate for the SUPER MEGA SELF ADJUSTING CAMERA if Lollipop had not ignored her from the beginning? Similarly, would it be easier to seek God's help from the very beginning?
What will you do?

I wanted to thank God...

I really thank God everytime I see things in my life fall into place when I choose to put my time in God's hands. One such incident was what happened today, though its something small, I really see God at work. Last night, I stopped doing my QANL at Q5, thinking that I'll just finish up the rest in class. Not like usual, I did not panick. Amazingly, the tutorial stopped at Q5. :D

Anyway, I'll be back at my work, doing print advert for RC. x)

The feeling of being cared by

I've moved on into the next book where more romance and excitement keep pouring in and gets my heart beating fast. Twilight Saga: New Moon is thicker and it's a surprise I actually borrowed the book to read. Maybe it's because I've watched the movie and hoped to read more, let my imagination run wild since the images of the characters of the movie are kinda sinked into my head. It makes it easier for me to picture them according to the novel. I think at this age, many girls are seeking for romance, love, pleasure, searching for someone to either care for or be cared by. Sometimes I kinda like the feeling too.. of being cared by. Like to have an older sister or another older brother.. How nice to have people to rely on. Pros and cons I would say...

GAIN/ LOSS

Gain M&Ms for being confident in presenting a short portion during RWPS;
Gain satisfaction over the day where we finally presented UCCD;
Gain an amount of rest on my bag in FC6;
Gain a time to become siaosiao with friends when we over excessively did projects day after day.

Gah.. Tired I was, not having enough sleep. I woke up as if deprived of sufficient rest. The fact was I did not. Zombied my way to school, always hoping to bump into this group of friends that I missed playing basketball with. And because of all those datelines, it had me setting my priorities straight - right.

Ngengenge...

I'm left with about an hour to sleep before a new day officially starts. Preparing UCCD ppt was somewhat enjoyable when done with God's help. It was peaceful... I'm not prepared for the presentation, but prepared to show my Powerpoint. :D

ngengenge... Hwee Chin said that I like to make those whining noises. It's when Chelsea goes crazy and starts to make funny noises to make my whining known. HA. HA!

This period of time I'm crazy over Twilight Saga. How I hoped they'll come out a series of it like Smallveille. Can't wait to read the rest of the books. Sweet).(

Mummy's birthday passed really quickly. She spend it dining out with Daddy at Jake's Place. And sweetie Mummy treated her darling girls to a huge scumpcious chicken, so tender and appetizing though we could only finish half. x)

rest sleep

I was back on my feet today after resting yesterday. I had a day of MC and realised how much I have missed from two tutorials. But I was glad God gave me rest.

"Come to me, all you who are weary and burdened, and I will give you rest." Matthew 11:28
"I can do everything through Him who gives me strength." Philipians 2:13

My stressful day of projects filling up my mind was comforted by these very verses.


I woke at 3am - medicine
slept
I woke at 5am - medicine
slept
I tried to wake up at 6am
slept til 7.30am...
late for GEMS
reached school, did other stuff


I almost almost did a side split! YAHOOHOO`~ Modern session today was fabulous... I really stretched like I never did before... But now the "soreness" comes. Turn out, brush, kick! Oh crap.. I fell asleep. Gona take my medicine and get some sleep..

DOCTOR DOCTOR!

It was the first time I went to the doctor myself. Queuing, taking my queue number, sitting on the chair staring at some empty seats, staring at the screen, waiting for my number to appear, answering the doctor's question, paying for my medicines.. Wish someone was there to accompany me. Will it be the same next time? I'm growing older, there are things which I cannot keep on depending on my parents any longer. That was a thought for the night.

Anyway, I dreamt of something awkward again... I kept dreaming of getting boyfriends, and some are those people I know... -.- How can?? BRrr..the thought of it gives me shivers..

Cure my thoughts!

flu, flu, go away`~

Star light star bright,

First star I see tonight.
Wish I may, wish I might,

Wish my flu would go away tonight.

This flu virus made my day moody. That's all I can say...

oh yes.

And I used 5 packets of tissues in school, more at home. ai-gooo...

Renewed Commitment

Yesterday, I renew my commitment before God.

I am going to go into a corporate prayer with Acts Baptist Church. 6am every morning, 10pm every night (if possible), and also to spent solitude time with God, reading His word after morning prayer. I have to get this rooted once and for all. ONCE AND FOR ALL!! ;D

No more running away from prayers or straying away into worldly pleasures. Which means I need to sleep now.

Please keep me in prayers.

Hi-bye friends

You saw them... You walked towards them... You said, "Hi". They answered, "Hi". You walked pass them. You said, "Bye". They answered, "Bye".

Another day you see them again... You walked towards them... You said, "Hi". They answered, "Hi". You walked pass them again. You said. "Bye". They answered, "Bye". And then you mumbled to yourself. They said, "Huh?" You said , "Nothing" and quickly walked away.

When is this going to end? Is there anything else other than hi's and bye's? I can't think of any other things to talk about. Lousy me in sustaining face-to-face conversations.

Naughty Jie Jie!

My sister slided this into my hands... So cute. What had caused this? I slipped a piece of paper into her shirt when she came towards me. haha! - playful.

I love my family

My mother called me 笨笨 in front of my grandparents. Four years of npcc life and what I got out of it? I was special head, of what? There was so little npcc stuff I took part in, mostly educational rather than action. (If you understand what that means) Everyone who knew I was once there would say "You NPCC right? Should know this.. should know that.." Should? My grandparents laugh and echoed the words. I can't help but teared because the thought of it was silly, and I did admit whatever my mother had said. Well, I always did ask myself, does my NPCC life ends here? Do I wait for the 3 years to expire? Am I going to run away, or maybe, just maybe someday, I'll be back and the cadets would find me a stranger there. My ah gong comforted me and said, “好啦好啦，不笨不笨。”

My mother also named me mountain tortise. She's very good with words. Sometimes hurtful but I took them as a joke. Mountain tortise because I have not been to Henderson Waves before and she's taking me there today. Corrections, she had already taken me there. Anyway, I'm really glad today because my brother was present with us again after his two weeks of army at HTA. Sometimes I just wonder how lonely I would be if I didn't have a brother. Ah well, stop being a sad Chelsea. Smile, put a smile on your face, maybe it's easier to talk to people. hah..

Some pictures at Henderson Wave~

A Series Of Events

Today, I was a wonderer; I was an indecisive person; I was a dumb person sleeping in FC6, occupying a table of four; I was an award achiever; and I was a babysitter.

These are the series of events that can happened to one who finishes her MST, comes to school to do one thing, and nothing else. Should I be sighing?

I WAS a WONDERER.

Apparently, I came to school with two objectives - GEMS class and to submit Student Dialogue Survey Form. GEMS class was only filled with three students. I won't say we went there for nothing because we had the priviledge to see the marks allocation for our CA1 project. HEE. A wonderer because I wondered around school first to CI Lab, then to Hilltop, to Main Library and back to SB to submit the survey.

I WAS a INDECISIVE PERSON.

Basically, I couldn't decide where to go. Suddenly there was nothing much for me to worry about today. I started planning my day as I slowly doze off. I thought of going back to the coffee shop near my secondary school to have carrot cake/ fried kway tiao. It didn't dawn on me that the stall might not be there anymore.

And now, a DUMB PERSON SLEEPING in FC6, occupying a table of four.

I looked like a lone-ranger laying there pathetically, waiting for time to past. When I woke, I saw familiar faces. Am I dreaming? No, I wasn't. Jeremy, Jake and their friends were there. I stood up, went for the only store I could thought of - WANTON NOODLE. I didn't dare to face them as I ate cos I was the sleeping person who occupied a table meant for eating. So embarrassed. Haha..

I WAS an AWARD ACHIEVER.

After the day when I knew my art piece was recognized, I made my journey down to YISS today to get my award. Amazingly, I didn't just won an ipod shuffle. I won FOUR IPOD SHUFFLES! (*echoing: shuffles..shuffles..shuffles..) I also got Art Friend vouchers of $160 in total. yahoo!Take a look at that!

I WAS a BABYSITTER.

After claiming my award, I went up to visit Mrs Zaki and Ah Ho. (He's still calling me char siew). Mdm Maslina's adorable little 4 year old girl was there - Sumayyah. I ended up taking care of her as she did her tracing of alphabets, sangs a few nursery rhymes to me and plays her "Land Before Time" computer game.

Anyway, my day ended with a haircut and a walk around Westmall before heading home.

Our Retail Communication window display on remote control cars. The total expenditure was $203.50. Fortunately, money comes from the school. Can't wait for two months to get my money back. ;D

RC: Window Display

fighting!

Thank God.! I was able to finish studying for Quantitative Analysis yesterday and this morning. Today's questions were rather tricky. The last question asked to use the corner point method to solve, BUT, there isn't any feasible solution region to solve in the first place. phew! I wasn't tricked. One more question which I might get it wrong - the calculation of the expected value. Kristen said we're suppose to take the lower value since we are dealing with time. trickkky... Anyway, those not studying this module would not understand what I am blabbering about.

My quest to finish the last episode Personal Preference was met, though one part of the last episode was missing from Youtube. Anyway, I noticed the power of Facebook - once you post something, the next thing you know, people are talking about it.

Here I am, setting another goal for me to achieve today:

1. Read God's word right after lunch
2. Start on FMA revision
3. Have appropriate snack time only
4. Continue with revision
5. Do FMA turorials again
6. Do FMA practice paper
7. That leaves me thinking whether I have time to complete my revision for Calculus.

Oh, why can't they just put Calculus on Thursday.
FIGHTING CHELSEA FIGHTING!~

Humiliation - laugh it off`~

Having to walk one leg bare footed from Chua Chu Kang LRT to Dover, having people staring at my foot, was embarrasing enough. Not to the extent of tapping my admin card on the ez-link reader, running headforth, and banging my body against the shutting gantry. Not to the extent of having someone I know telling me, "Err.. That's your admin card." How much more humiliation can I get?

Today was bad hair day, bad slipper day, bad memory day and what a day to tap the wrong card`~ Anyway, it was a good time to laugh it off.

Marketing Reasearch paper wasn't that tough, if I had memorized those few areas I knew I should. Well, still managable. Tomorrow is Quantitative Analysis paper. Have not yet studied a bit, but will be aiming to finish the last episode of Personal Preference before I continue mugging. hah.

Vesak Day

Slept throughout Vesak Day. How's that?! yao!~

meddlesome dream?

I'm still meddling with my blog at such an hour. poof!
Few days back, I dreamt about someone proposing to me with a rose.
And another leaning on me on the train..though my shoulder bones are sharp.
What am I dreaming about?!

I think it must be too much of Taiwan dramas.

\m/

I was jumping for joy when I received Ms Tan's sms saying that

"Chelsea U won the top 5 and the most creative award in sculpture

category nparks community in blooms art competition."

And.. the prize is an ipod shuffle with an award certificate. Two awards!
My work will be exhibited in YISS this week, other places and then NLB!

(singing) wicked awesome! awesome. awesome. awaw.. yeah! \m/

Thank you Ms Tan!!

Tomorrow is RC practical and my group hasn't prepare anything. cool~!

Staying up to complete UCCD Powerpoint, keep pressing on..

Can't wait for Vesak Day.

fun-filled with basketball!

It’s my turn to fall sick. Cough and flu has found its way back to me. It was a disastrous feeling. Save me! I had trouble having fun in camp because of this. Well, guessed it must have been “IT’S TIME FOR YOU TO REST CHELSEA!”

Apparently, after my bath in SP, I made my way into the air conditioned room for a project meeting. That was when I caught a cold. However, I must say I really enjoyed the basketball game yesterday. It was amazing. The second match was rather draining. I got distracted many times. Then the droplets came, followed by a pour that showered down just when we got into the shelter. I wanted to get drenched in the rain though my little pink towel was there to save my head. HAHAHA…

I thank God for my brother, for the friends I met in the game that made my poly life so fun-filled with basketball!

Let's just name the people there so I won't forget:

Adam (my brother),

Vivien, Jewel, Xiao Qi, Yu Kang, Wee Jin (my classmates)

Jeremy, GT (new friends from last Friday)

unknown male (I forgot his name)

Spectator:

Joanna

I miss

I miss secondary school, I miss being the silly me, I miss those days when I get to play basketball with Felicia and friends everyday, I miss doing Mathematics and getting cola gummies from Mdm Lim, I miss giving the teachers the blue attendance book to sign, I miss going to Yuan Chan's house and snack on those goodies, I miss taking photos with Yanjun, I miss Sport's Day when I ran the long distances in constant speed, I miss the art room, I miss staying up late to do projects with project groups, I miss trying to dig out the last bit of my paint to finish up my painting, I miss the little gifts from Mr Ho, I miss staying late getting locked on the 4th floor after art classes, I miss talking to the auntie who helps us lock every door in the school, I miss giving announcements in class, I miss my school uniform, I miss P.E. lessons, I miss talking to Mdm Wong until late at night in the English staff room, I miss going on exchange programs, I miss going to the Art museum with friends and not alone, I miss playing catching and climbing on monkey bars, I miss playing "vampire vampire vampire chest", "baby baby baby chest", I miss receiving sms from Sifra and Jiaxin and answering their queries, I miss tying those knots and shouting "2, 6, pull!", I miss wearing track pants, I miss those classrooms with fan, I miss bickering with Syidin and scolding Sri, I miss playing the recorder to the song "doe, a deer...", I miss having my father singing me to sleep, I miss enjoying those tickles from my mother, I miss sketching, I miss dozing off in Art room, I miss trying to stay longer in Art room before going for other classes, I miss being last to leave the class, I miss the joy of reading God's word every morning, I miss being carefree and young, I miss being able to express myself and not fearing what others think of me, I miss the hardworking me.

To miss is to discover or feel the absence of (something)

To miss is also to fail to obtain

I am feeling both ways. I fail to obtain those things I now discover the absence of.

what in the world?